arranging my feelings

yupp here i am to blog about some old stuffs.
my itchy hand linked me to one St.John member's blog(hint: she,s from MJ, currently yr 2, ex-tampines sec.) and from there, i went to other SJ members blog.
To be honest, im having really mixed feelings right now. its been months since i cease sj activities and going back to evss. tmr, im gonna face one of my platoon mate who is still currently serving st.john cus he's working for IT fair tmr too` and needless to say, he,ll for sure talk about SJ stuffs.... which.... i dont wish to talk about it at all. i have yet to submit my resignation letter which means, my name is still in the organizational chart :( even though i always and forever complain abt how bad EVSJAB is...if you ask me now, i will still want to go back and serve the corp. cus there' is just too many feelings and emotions i left in EV.. my 3 glorious years of competition, winning trophies for the school, my platoon mates, Some of my ever-trustable seniors whom instilled this strong sense of belonging to the corp in me.. shit mans. if only i dont get so emo now. argh. cb. i think im gonna tear.
i mean life right now hasnt been that bad either. more time with family, dramas, lots of friends outing, mahjong, all the stuffs that i like to do. but why do i feel that there is something missing in my life right now?


*takes out a floral hanky and tear*


dont think i should think abt it any further now.. shall be honest with benjamin tan when i see him tmr and not act like i,m leading a so-happy-near-perfect life w/o SJ

shits!

i jus found a new korean boy band, er, not really new to the entertainment scene, DBSG/TVXQ!!! hahahahas. quite cute eh. read lots of news about them while searching for shinhwa's stuff. so i went further in knowing them better! lols. they are actually quite cute eh! seriously, as much as i try, i couldnt find any members who are not-so-attractive! they are the typical boy-band with gushing looks, especially the leader Xiah. BUT :) SHINHWA still rocks.
i might divert my support to TVXQ should Shinhwa disband one day (*hurries to slap the wood madly). hahah. i mean the company should know better, shinhwa solo members will not achieve much success as compared to when they are in a group.
anyway, i did haf fun today for cny visiting with all the gossiping and criticising! budden the atmosphere was less rowdy and noisy as compared to last years'. hahaha. nevermind, its alryte :)
while jam and val are looking fwd to their aplenty drama CDs taken from bakah, i,m all into this korean drama that is going to be shown over ch u in mar( finally a decent korean drama on a local television)

P/s: yishi, they have taken all the shows u want hahahas. dont worry, u still have db`